A Special Friend!

Well, this blog will be very easy to write about because it is coming straight from my heart...

I really truly believe that God is always divine when he places people in your life. It was a little over a year ago that I moved to Atlanta and, although I miss my friends in Miami, God has been faithful in bringing new friends into my life.

If you know my past then you know I have a hard time TRUSTING...I trust in God and I have complete confidence in Him, which is great and we all should, but when it comes to people, a little difficult for me. It is especially hard for me to become close with females because of the strained relationship I have with my mother. Unfortunately, I have stereo-typed women as being: gossipers, liars, manipulators, deceivers, controllers etc...Not intentionally, well, at least I don't think I do??

Moving forward. God has been gracious in bringing one particular young lady into my life from my very first visit here. She is an incredible woman of God and is an amazing friend. Her husband and Trey have known each other since high school, making our first dinner date completely relaxed. Trey kept on and on about her and, of course, her husband. Needless to say she is a God sent! She has been there for me since day one. She is a genuine friend, who is completely honest, and worthy of trusting. She allows me to vent when I am extremely frustrated with certain people and she responds with an honest, "This is how I would approach the situation." I mean she ROCKS.
Her and her husband traveled to TN to be apart of our wedding day! He, in fact, married us!
She was there for me when I miscarried...Get this. I didn't answer my phone when she called, TWICE, because I was using the potty and the next thing I know she is at my door step.. She wasn't trying to get me out of bed, tell me indirectly I needed to move forward, she just allowed me to grieve. She was so gentle and compassionate. Seriously, she is an over-the-top kind of friend. A friend that all of us should strive to be. I honestly can't say enough about her. Trey and I adore the friendship we have with her and her husband. We know that in the future they will play very important roles in the lives of our children.

Both of them were there for Trey when he had back surgery last year. I mean they just didn't come to the hospital to "talk" but they came bearing gifts! I mean everything from DVDs (like 100), baked items, even some cozy things for me! :) I know one day when they both get to heaven they will have a mac-daddy mansion because of all they do for people here on earth.
She is a very classy, sophisticated and a goofy (in her own kind of way type of lady!)
I could go on and on but I think you get the point. Friends are treasures sent from above. And I most definitely treasure you, LB!

Love you girl and I look forward to many, many happy times ahead!

June 6th, 2009

What a long journey home....

Our flight left Vegas at 5:50am Saturday, June 6th....Trey and I had no sleep and were up for over 24 hours...I looked like a hot mess! No lie.
We got to the airport at 2:30 am and it was a ghost town. Not a person to be seen. We even tried to sleep in the airport, I wish I had a picture for y'all to have seen what we looked like. Hilarious-that's all I can say. Although it was not funny at the time!

We boarded the plan to Atlanta....only then to board another plan to Charlotte... By the time we arrived to Charlotte the delirium set in. All I kept thinking is how in the world would we make it home. I don't sleep in cars but, my husband, he has no problem doing that. So I drove so that he could get some sleep.

I, on the other hand, thought about that day, June 6th. For many it was just another day but for me it was anything but....It was exactly a month ago that Trey and I found out our baby had no heartbeat. I broke down in the car as Trey was sleeping. I couldn't help but reflect on the entire experience and to think about the Grace of God. Once again, I found myself, hand raised worshiping the Lord. There is a song titled, "There will be a day" by Jeremy Camp
It is an incredible song and it came on at the exact same time that I began to reflect on what I had gone through...
The words go like this:

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have...
But I feel the weight of what it brings and the hurt that tries to grab..
Many trials that seem to never end...this world declares this truth...
We will enter in this rest...with wonders a new...
BUT I hold onto this hope...and the promise that HE brings..
There will be a place with no more suffering...
There will be a day..with no more tears..no more pain...and no more fears..
There will be a day... when the burdens of this place...will be no more...we'll see Jesus face to face..
But until that day...we'll hold onto you... always...
I know the journey seems so long...you feel your walking on your own...
There has never been a step..where you've walked out all alone..troubled soul don't lose your heart...cuz joy and peace He brings..and the beauty that's in store...out weighs the hurt of life's sting...
(back to the chorus)

A beautiful song that means more to me now than when I first heard it.

I realize that I was not the first person in the world to miscarry, but unfortunately, I do know that I will not be the last....Therefore, I pray, when the time comes that God will help me to help another woman who needs to see the hope in the midst of a hopeless situation.

That is all for now....May God Bless You and Keep You!

~Jenni-Lynn~

Vegas...baby!

Vegas is definitely a sight to be seen! You have to go atleast once if you haven't already been....

Go to my husbands blog to read about Vegas..www.thewhirlingderbisher.blogspot.com

My sebatical is over......but where do I begin?!?!?

Well, alot has transpired since my last post....leaving me baffled about where I should begin!

May 30th- Our Last Wedding Reception! Yippie- seriously, I was over it already...

Kudos definitely goes out to my husband for all the running around he did that day. He was my SUPER husband and did a great job making it a lovely evening. I, on the other hand, spent the morning with my cousin...we were on a mission! My mother-in-law met us at Tanger where she picked out some great shoes for my dress..she also let me borrow a beautiful necklace and earrings set...Mission accomplished!

It was a very hot day....and on our way out we stopped by McDonald's...Deperately needing something to eat and, no, yogurt parfaits made, are you serious???

I LOVE parfaits, just ask my husband...So I settled for apples and caramel dipping sauce....

I started to feel extremely ill, with a major headache to follow...I had to pull over because I felt like vomitting..My cousin offered to drive but I insisted that I could make it home...Well, that was not the case. You would have thought it was my actual wedding day, as I proceeded to vomit on the side of the road....Needless to say, I got home and rested until it was time to get ready!

Here are a few pictures of the evening!

My Husband!

We always dream as little girls that one day we will meet our Prince Charming, he will gracefully sweep us off our feet and then we will ride off into the sunset and live happily ever after......

Truthfully, I did not ask for any of the above nor did I believe any of the above would "come true." Maybe it was because I was faced with the reality at a very young age that sometimes happily ever after doesn't really happen. I look around and I ask, Where did the effort go? Where did the sacrifice fall? Where did the to death do us part end? Jesus was the only answer I could find. Without Him marriages fail and in some cases with Him marriages fail...So why do we give up so easily? What causes us to say, "It's over?" Are we all so stubborn and so selfish that its all about us and if our needs aren't met then we are gone. Really, I wonder what Jesus is thinking? In the face of death, He didn't run. So why do we? And might I make mention, many of us aren't running because there is a warrant for our death...

Marriage requires us to change. Before it was all about me, me, me! You know what I am talking about :) And now its all about us, us, us! So, yes, change is required in order for the 2 to remain as 1. So this is where I see marriages end. I know its a big word, SACRIFICE. Americans have a hard time comprehending the word sacrifice much less actually doing it. Yet when we look to the greatest "man" that walked the earth, He was all about sacrifice.

So I say all that to say, that God has blessed me ABUNDANTLY with a man who strives everyday to sacrifice himself for me. He lived a life for a long time that was all about him, but he has done an amazing job making it all about me. Is our marriage perfect, are we each struggling with issues that were brought on as a result of our parents, ABSOLUTELY, but at the end of the day, we strive everyday to sacrifice ourselves for each other. And the most important word I can use here is CHANGE. My husband desperatley desires to change everyday, while still holding on to fears that grip him from the past. Change is hard and it requires us to actively change our ways, its not easy. Which explains why many CHOOSE not to change. I can't accept someone who says I can't change....A life lived in the world to a life lived in Christ is a huge example of change. So what is your excuse?

I meant this to be about my husband so here it is...

You truly are the godly man that I prayed for and without you in my life I am lacking. You are my strength when I am weak. You have been my support in many ways. You have enabled me to lift my head when I just wanted it to drop. You've been there for me when no one else was. You constantly strive to make me happy. When I am hurting you hurt. You are a great provider and lover. You are the love of my life! With you I feel secure, safe and satisfied. It's hard to believe that in just a couple of days you got down on one knee. And, yet, here we are, married, in love and living happily ever after. I love you and I know you know. Its obvious, seeing as though I only tell you a million times a day. ;) I promise to continue to put God first and you second because I know that kind of unfailing love will last a life time. True love wasn't modeled before me, but I'm thankful to serve a God everyday who shows me what real love is all about. You are a true example of change. I know you are not where you want to be but know that you are doing a great job getting there! And its because you have a desire to seek change. That is a remarkable quality in and of itself.
I can go on and on but I will stop for now....

I only pray that the love I feel towards you is demonstrated on a day to day basis. I love you with all my heart!
~Jenni~

I'm back....

I know, it has been a while, but I'm ready to blog again!

Well, this is just a glimpse of what last week looked like for Trey and I......

I went back to the doctor's last week for a follow-up and, it wasn't exactly the kind of follow-up I was hoping for. Apparently, I did not "pass" everything and so I was given more medicine...
Come to find out, the reason why I did not pass everything was because I was taking pain medicine that was counteracting the contractions. Wonderful, I know. That explains the difference in the first night versus all the rest. The first night I took the medication I literally felt like I was dilated 10 cm, pushing out a healthy baby boy/girl, NATURALLY. The pain was no joke. Seriously, when the time does come again, lets just say I won't be nominated for a Grammy or an Oscar. I no longer have a desire to deliver naturally.

So, I started the 2nd round of medicine last Thursday and finished Saturday morning. I was suppose to go back to the doctor's tom., but plans have changed. Due to another staff meeting at school, I have to reschedule.....I'm trying not to complain because I only work 180 days out of the year, but the timing of this stinks.
Let me mention that this medicine was nothing like the first go around. The cramping was nothing more than a menstrual cramp, Thank you Jesus. I just pray it was strong enough and that it served its purpose because I do NOT want to have a DNC.
Please, continue to pray that my body is restored and that a DNC does not lie within the near future. Not an option since day 1, and I APPRECIATE my husband so much for not imposing that on me.

Stay tuned for a special blog dedicated to my husband!

Friday afternoon Trey and I headed to Fort Mill, SC, where we celebrated our marriage with my family. I must say, it was the best thing I could have done at that time. We needed to get away, even though I hadn't completely healed physically, it was some kind of fun! Trey and I are extremely blessed to have such large families who love us so very much. It showed by all the support and love that went into our reception Saturday night!

We came back yesterday and are trying to get through this week. Hopefully, it will fly by like last week.

Trey and I have so much to look forward to and we are excited about all the traveling we will be doing over the summer! Don't worry I will fill you in on upcoming blogs!

That's it for now.....

In Him,

~Jenni-Lynn~

Monday's.....

Ok, so, I'm sure the majority of you, working class people, would agree with me that Monday's stink??? I thought so.

This particular Monday for me wasn't any different. It was bittersweet. I had to put my "big girl panties" on, bite the bullet and face reality. All while still coping with the hurt and pain, both physical and emotional, of the reality that I know longer have a healthy, baby boy/girl growing inside of me.

I got to school and had a beautiful plant sitting on my desk with a card from one of my students parent, along with dozens and dozens of sweet, home-made cards from my kids. This was obviously the sweet from the bittersweet. I sat there and cried as I read the beautiful, innocent words coming from 11 and 12 years old. Words of encouragement, love and hope along with Bible verses such as this one, "For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations" Psalm 100:5

I received hugs, after hugs, after hugs. Along with comments like, "Mrs. Sheneman don't cry God has given you, us for now, we are your "babies." I mean, seriously, lets just say this is not when the crying stopped. I was embraced, loved and reminded that God had surrounded me with his promise and it was evident.

Psalm 128:1-4 & 6a

"Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in his ways. You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your sons will be like olive shoots around your table. Thus is the man blessed who fears the Lord...and may you live to see your children's children!!" AMEN

Truthfully, I could not have asked for a better career. I am constantly reminded all day, everyday of God's provision and God's faithfulness, based on the beautiful children I see everyday.
I was not only embraced by my kids, but also my principal and many teachers. Some with just a hug and "I love you," while others a rub on the back because they had no words to say and those quiet touches were just as equally good. Overall, it was a good day. I was still in pain and reaping the affects of what I lost, but its getting better and I know, "Everything's going to be alright."

I've appreciated ALL of your prayers, they definitely have been felt and treasured.

To Dad & Mom: We are blessed to have you as parents and most importantly godly parents.
Mom- I appreciate your compassion and love towards me. This situation has allowed me to trust and feel secure in the arms of a mother's love. Next time open the door because whether I realized it or not I needed you!
Dad- I know you've been at a loss for words and that's ok. I know you love me and are sorry for what Trey and I have endured. I'm sure as a parent this is one situation that if you could fix it, you would. You're sweet hugs were HUGE and much appreciated.
We love you both very much.

To Joey & Stacey: You've both been very loving and compassionate during this whole situation.
Stacey- Although I did not ask you to take a half-day and drive to Henry County, its probably a good thing you did. You've shown me, that when it comes to love, jumping through hoops is necessary because "when one of us hurts, we all hurt." Love you and thank you!
Joey- A man of few words, but when you speak, you crack us all up. Thank you for a hug and a "how are you feeling," it was just enough!
We love you both very much.

To Brad & Lanie Beth: Your friendship is our blessing from the Lord and we love you both more than you can imagine. You two are incredible. You have a heart for the hurting and a love for God's children. It's evident in your lives on a daily basis. You have bent over backwards for Trey and I, while still going about the daily ins and out of your own lives. THANK YOU...Can't you see why we chose the both of you?!?!? :)

To Blake & Sabrina: Your friendship is treasured. You two are sweet as pie. Scary, at times, to think my husband and Blake are exactly the same but, Blake, you are good for my Trey. Of course, with healthy boundaries, y'all are a "good fit." Sabrina, your a blessing to me...even when I didn't answer your calls or return your text. You were still in my heart and thoughts! We love you and appreciate all you've done for us.

To those I have not included, you are not forgotten. You are a blessing to Trey and I whether I have plugged you into this little "added note." Trey and I are blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful friends and family. May God continue to bless you all.

With Love,
~Jenni~