At some point today Trey and I were sitting on the couch when Tripp glanced at my tummy and said, "baby," I cried. Trey had to tell him that he/she was with Jesus. Tripp didn't get it but that's OK.
Needless to say, I "survived."
I was glad Trey got to spend some time with his momma, as she understands what it means to have a child taken from her way too soon too. She lost her first son, Stevie, when he was only 11 in a tragic accident. I realize so much more why God choose Trey to be my husband and Deb to be my mother-in-law. I am blessed.
I want to take this time to recognize and honor an amazing mother. Although she is not my mother, she is my grandmother, my Nana. This Mother's Day was difficult for her as well. She has 3 children, one of which is my mom, and yet 2 out of her 3 children consciously made the decision not to send a card or even bother to pick up the phone. Some mother's amaze me, that's all I can say. My Nana is a godly woman who has literally been through hell and back, for what, I couldn't even tell you. (Another question I feel the need to ask God about.)
She did the best she could raising her children, a single parent, with no help from their father. Yet, all of a sudden they find their father and choose to listen and agree to his "side" of the story.
"Who raised you, who provided food for you and who put clothes on your back..." I think the answer to the side of the story should be pretty obvious... Don't get me wrong, I am all about forgiveness, but don't turn your back on the one who provided for you and was there all along.
The whole situation is extremely sad but I just ask that you would pray for my Nana, pray for my family. Her name is Elizabeth McKuhen. Pray for healing in her life and the strength to face each day. She deserves so much but has seemed to be given the "short end of the stick." But I know that one day (when she is like a 100) when she meets Jesus face to face he will have an amazing crown of jewels for her. Because she has done her best to be a Proverbs 31 woman.
Happy Mother's Day, Nana!
To all the mommas who have lost their babies, I know, it hurts. To all the mommas who can't or are struggling to become pregnant, hold on to the promises in God's word.
And to all those mommas who have already been blessed with children, look at them each day and say, "Thank you, Jesus, I am blessed." Complain less because you are blessed. Stop to think about those women who would love to be up with their baby all night, who would give anything to feed them at their breast and who would give their life up for the sake of their child. You are blessed!
To my angel, know that mommy and daddy love you. We know you are protected and safe! Thank you for allowing me to be your mommy, even if it was just for a little while in my tummy. You brought me so much joy! BIG XOXOXOXO's
In Him,
~Jenni~
